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I knew what it felt like to be jealous for the first time. I was unwilling to talk to anyone of the opposite sex other than Xiao Ge, even if their reasons were legitimate. When Xiao Ge was discussing math problems with other boys, my displeasure awakened my masculine sense of dominance. In my eyes, that ignorant boy was encroaching on my territory. Yes, at that time, Xiao Ge was not my equal in my eyes; she was just my possession. I suppressed my inner feelings and did not step forward to stop this behavior until I wrote this. I realized that it was my inner weakness at play. The anger in my eyes was just to cover up my cowardice. I couldn't solve the problem like a lion. So I vented all the pressure on Xiao Ge, being emotionally abusive to her. But I didn't feel happy about it. I knew that this was my greatest incompetence.
Xiao Ge I'm very sad, I don't know what I did wrong, but she still treats me well. When she was best to me, I didn't cherish it. After summer vacation, I stayed at my brother's house and played a popular game with him all day. I didn't have time for Xiao Ge It was also at that time that I decided to break up with Xiao Ge That day, my brother had something to do early in the morning, so I was at home playing games. I looked at the messages sent by Xiao Ge and felt annoyed from the bottom of my heart. Suddenly, I opened my phone and sent a message to Xiao Ge
Let's break up.
At the moment I sent the message, there were no beautiful memories with her in my mind, no touching and sentimental scenes, only the pleasure of playing games without anyone bothering me after the breakup.
I started another game, and while waiting for the game to start, my phone rang. I saw it was Xiao Ge, so I silenced the phone and continued with my game.
I played until late at night, and when I picked up my phone, I saw over twenty missed calls and dozens of messages from Xiao Ge, as well as a call from a classmate of mine, named Tian Tian. I knew she must have been calling about Xiao Ge, but I still answered the call. After a short while, the call connected, and besides Tian Tian's questions, I could also hear Xiao Ge crying. I didn't say much and just hung up the phone.
I was very puzzled as to why I was so heartless at that moment. I rarely act this way, except when dealing with people close to me. I have very little patience, especially with my mother. I get annoyed by her nagging, so I often end up shouting at her. Now it seems that this is one of my major problems. I have no patience for those close to me, and I reserve all my tolerance for strangers and friends.
It wasn't until I was 20 years old that I realized this problem. I always thought I was gentle and understanding, but deep down, I am selfish and only think about myself.
A few days after breaking up with Little Ge, I went to bed early one day. My brother's room is not big, so we took turns sleeping on the floor. That day, I slept on the floor and I remember falling asleep at 8 o'clock. When I woke up, it was 12 o'clock and I found myself lying on the bed. I looked at my brother with a puzzled expression. "You're awake. Do you know what you did just now?" my brother asked. My mind was even more confused, "How did I end up on the bed?"
"You were sleepwalking just now, acting like a shaman and scaring me to death. But the weird thing is, you kept calling out your ex-girlfriend's name."
Upon hearing this, I found it hard to believe. Not because I didn't believe I had done those things, but because I couldn't believe she was still in my heart.
I pondered all night, or rather, I thought about her all night.
Perhaps in my heart, in the deeper, more selfish and impatient part, is the person I love the most. I have some doubts about my own heart. This is even more confusing than confusion.
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